Memorial Day

Today is Memorial Day...

Plans for the day are to have a bbq with my family and Andrew and Lauren :) It's gonna be fun. Lauren and I bought Rockband 3 so maybe we will all play today. It should jsut be a fun relaxing day. Can't wait to see Andrew! I've missed him so much this week!

Mama Bear's Bday!

Today is my mom's 55th birthday! I'm so glad that I got to be around for everyone's bday this year. Going to dinner tonight to celebrate! :)

Hmm...

Today was relatively boring. I started packing up my stuff for my trip. I think that it will all fit quite nicely into the rolling duffle bag and the hiking backpack that I am going to attempt to put it all in. I called the duffle bag my "stuff" suitcase and the backpack I will put clothes and whatever else I need easy access to.

I went to church tonight. It was my first time really ever going by myself. I have to admit that I was a little nervous at first, but the atmosphere of St. Anthony is just the kind of place where you can go by yourself and not feel weird. Father George told this story about a kid that was in a tragic accident. A doctor was called, that was the only one in town that could save the young boy. The doctor gets out of bed and gets ready to head to the hospital. He knows that there is a quicker way to get to the hospital than he usually takes, but it is through a dangerous neighborhood. He decides to take the risk and drive the quickest way. When he comes to a stoplight he stops, and a man in a grey hat and dirty t-shirt opens that car door and tells the doctor to get out of the car. The doctor quickly tries to explain that he has an emergency that he is trying to get to, but the man doesnt listen and takes the car anyway. It takes the doctor nearly 45 minutes to find a phone and a way to the hospital. When the doctor arrives at the hospital he rushes to the nurses station and asks about that boy. She tells him that the boy died nearly 30 minutes ago. She tells the doctor that the boy's father is in the chapel and that he cannot understand why the doctor did not show up to save his son. The doctor walks quickly to that chapel, and the boys father is there dressed in a grey hat and dirty t-shirt...the man that took his car. The man looks at the doctor is pure terror after realizing what he had done. He had rejected the only person that could have saved his son.

Do you get the moral of the story?

I think about that story, and I think about where my faith is these days. I have grown in my faith so much ever since moving to Texas. Attending the 6p.m. mass at St. Anthony of Padua Catholic Church has definatly brought me a lot closer to God and has helped me grow in my faith. I attend mass almost every Sunday now, and I go to class on Thursday nights with Lauren. I hope that I keep the strength that I have in my faith whenever I am in Africa.

I'm in a good place....

Today wasn't a special day, it wasn't a day where anything particularly great happened, but right now I am in just the best mood. I was on facebook, and I was looking at an old friend's facebook. She became a very good friend to me surprisingly after I moved to Texas (I had known her in California). We would message each other back and forth all the time. She is now married to her high school sweetheart, they have been together probably 7 years by now. He is in the military and from what I gather he is going to be overseas for a year. I see that they are doing a great job even being so far apart. It makes my heart happy to know that people can still have a great relationship being so far away from each other. I just have this great feeling that everything is going to be alright. I ordered my bug hut today. All that's left to do is pack. :) 2.5 weeks left!!!! EEEEEEKKKKKKK! haha

Beach!

I had the most amazing day that the beach today :) It was just me and my best friend Lauren enjoying our last few weeks together.

Big News...

I was such a wreck last night after Andrew left. I started to cry like such a freaken baby. I talked to Andrew about it and of course he said all the right things to makes me feel better about everything.

I booked my flight today. I will be flying out of IAH at 6:05am on June 9th. I will arrive in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania and spend 1 day and night there. On June 10th I take a shuttle to New York where I will flying to Brussels, Belgium before getting on another flight to Burkina Faso...It's all really happening now.

Harder and harder...

Every week it gets harder and harder to be strong.

I just spent an amazing 3 days with Andrew. He goes back to work tomorrow. Its getting harder and harder to say goodbye to him. He just left back to Huntsville and this time Patches went with him. Im really sad about Patches because she was my escape for when I got so lonely I needed to get some air. I feel like I am suffocating here. I get so filled with loneliness that I cant breathe. I keep thinking that with every passing week, thats one week closer to me leaving.

I knew it would happen, but I find it strange that I get this lonely here. I feel silly because I think to myself, how can I be so lonely when I am near  people that are important to me...How am I going to feel when I am in Africa? I wish I could take Andrew and Lauren with me. I couldnt breathe before I even got to the dorr after saying bye to Andrew. The tears were just building up so fast that I had to force myself to not look back for fear of them spilling out.

I often wonder if I am making the right choice. I know in my heart that I am, but at the same time I can't help but feel an overwhelming desire to stay. I know that the only reason that I am wanting to stay now is becuase of Andrew. If I never would have met him and fallen in love with him then I would never be questioning my decision to go, but I did. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and that GOD has a plan for me. At the same time howevver I can't help but wonder why GOD would put such an amazing person in my life who has now become my love and best friend into my life knowing that I would be devastated to have to be away from him?

It's just so much to think about...

Best day I've had in a long time...

I had such a great day today <3.

Definitely the best I've had since I've been home, I didn't feel sad all day. Not even now :)

My love called me when he was home safe from work. We got to talk for like 30 min <3 it was awesome. I was really tired when he called but it was so worth it.

Lauren and I spent the entire day together! We went to like 143982953 different places and we finally found the perfect bathing suits. Mine is a 2 piece (yikes!) it is turquoise and supper cutie. Finally something that fits my boobs really well! haha. We had lunch at Cheesecake Factory...

While we were out, Andy called me and told me that he didn't feel like going to work so he came down to The Woodlands. It was so great to see him and hug him (he smelled amazing!). He met up with me and Lauren and we all had pretzels and ICEE's (well Lauren had pomegranate lemonade).

Lauren left the  mall to go to the gym and Andy and I came back to my parents house. We ended up grabbing Patches and going to the puppy park. We held hands and talked the whole way there (AHHHHHMAZING). Then we came back to my parents house. Lauren came over and we played like a million games of rockband. Lauren got tired and went home and Andrew stayed and we tried to watch Netflix but it kept messing up. He played a little Call of Duty Black Ops and he just left to go home. I miss him already but its not as bad because I am in a great mood.

Today was a great day. I needed it very much :)

ugh

It's only been 2 whole days that I have been at my parents house and I feel like its been 9 years. It sucks becuase Andy and I only get to talk 2 times a day at most (once before work and once when he's on break). :(

So far....

It is currently 11:16 am. So far I have....

-Cleaned up a disaster that Patches made in the yard
-Jogged with Patches to the dog park
-Played with Patches at the park for about an hour
-Jogged home from the park
-Made omlets for everyone
-Sorted through my books
-Packed the books in my car

Things I have left to do....

-Get Patches a bone to chew on so she will stop barking
-Get Patches some treats and start training her
-Go to the library
-Go to Michael's to get the things that I need to finish the scrapbook
Go to Half-Price Books with Lauren to make some money lol
-Workout!

BUSY day. Hopefully it makes time go by faster becuase I really miss Andy.

Home sick...

Well, I knew that this day would come. I moved back home to my parents house and I miss Andrew so much. It's weird because it's not like in all the time we've been together we haven't spent the night apart, but this time it just seems so permanent. I keep thinking of how much I would rather be at home waiting for him to crawl in to bed after work, than laying on my bed at my parents house wishing to be there. It seems very insignificant on the grand scale of things to miss him while I am only about 30 miles away from him, but the thing is that now things are moving so fast. It's only 1 month and 2 days until I leave to Africa. I wish that I could freeze the beautiful moments that we spend together and make them last forever. I don't want to miss him this bad when I'm gone...

How time is just flying by....

Yesterday Andrew and I hit the big 6 month mark...6 months. Crazy.

I did want to update but I think I'll save it for another time. Got lots to think about.